Master Key Experience – Week 22

Wow.

I have so many emotions and feelings and just I can’t really put it into words. MKE has been over for a few weeks and I’m still a little behind but I am continuing and I am going to have everything done before the next part of master key starts. There it’s in writing now, I’ve said it so I will do it. I have been so slack on all my readings and every activity and I have noticed a HUGE HUGE HUGE amount of the old insecurities and lingering sadness cloud me again. I didn’t realise just how much all of these little activities helped until I stopped doing them so regulary. I have decided to sign up for the lifetime membership. I mean why not. I would love the opportunity to do this again and again until I GET IT.

Let’s rewind to week 22. The webby. Ah the silence. I am planning my silence now. I have a picture in my mind of how I want to do it. I want to go away by myself to a little cabin in the hills and take a journal and let it spill out of me. At first I felt like a little winded and worried and then nausea thinking about just being with nothing. Strange emotions to be feeling just working listening to the webby in my headphones. But after I thought about it, I have become so excited. I honestly mean it. I can’t wait. People think I’m crazy. But I have this really strong feeling that this is going to the big jump for me. I will know after this, I can feel it in my bones.

I put it out into the universe (instagram) to make my imagination a reality with cabins and homes and air bnbs recommendations and a girl I know sent through one so magical and special, I knew it was the one instantly. Thank you universe.

I really put myself out of my comfort zone this week. As instructed. I downloaded bumble bff. It’s like a dating app but for friends. I thought fuck it. I want like minded friends. Going through this I feel super disconnected to most of the people I once knew and gelled so well with. It makes me feel a little sad but I know that right now I’m just really figuring out so much stuff and sometimes it’s okay to not be as close to some people. But this app is so great, girls are raw and real and not afraid to be like yeah this is against all social norms but who cares, I wanna connect to you. It’s magical really.

I’m going for a 16m run tomorrow because I CAN DO IT (even though god it’s been a while haha) and then meeting one of the girls for brekky.

Good night universe. I’m grateful for the rollercoaster.

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Master Key Experience – Week 21

The ability to eliminate imperfect conditions depends upon mental action, and mental action depends upon consciousness of power; therefore, the moreconscious we become of our unity with the source of all power, the greater will be our power to control and master every condition.

Large ideas have a tendency to eliminate all smaller ideas so that it is well to hold ideas large enough to counteract and destroy all small or undesirable tendencies. This will remove innumerable petty and annoying obstacles from your path. You also become conscious of a larger world of thought, thereby increasing your mental capacity as well as placing yourself in position to accomplishsomething of value.

 

I love week 21. I found the scroll to be the one that talked to me the most. I know they all are saying the same thing in different words/examples/scenarios but this one I felt spoke to my soul the most.

I faced fear this week by doing a high ropes course. I have always had a pretty severe fear of heights which I guess is a fear of death. But I put myself in the position to see how my brain coped with the fear that has been embedded in me from an early age and my new found knowledge. I kept smiling the whole way, kept thinking and repeating outloud this is fun, I am happy, I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy. It was contagious. I could see it rubbing off onto people around me.

I always faced unworthiness by deleting social media. This one is a huge one for me. I constantly compare my life to others. But why? I know I can create that life if that is what I really want. I have an addiction to that feeling. I’m still working on breaking this habit.

I can’t believe this is nearly over. This has become a part of me. I see people around me doing things that this course has shown me to do. I have friends who say three gratitudes a day. A dentist I work with came in the other day and said after his meditation that morning he wanted to tell me he was grateful for me and needed to let me know. Another dentist I work says something she is thankful for every time we have an angry pt. It’s hilarious to me and I find it amazing that people around me are interested in what is happening to me.

I have not been perfect but it’s crazy if I don’t do the exercises for a couple days – I can not sleep, my mind goes absolutely crazy, it’s like a reel of all the sayings, concepts, dmps, affirmations that I’ve learnt and heard on this course just spinning around and around in my head and I wake up with a NEED to get my tasks done. It’s the craziest thing.

I know I smile a hell of a lot more lately.

I am excited for after the course, I know I can do this – and I will figure it all out in due time. I have tools now!

Ciao xo

The predominant thought or the mental attitude is the magnet, and the law is that “like attracts like”, consequently the mental attitude willinvariably attract such conditions as correspond to its nature.

This mental attitude is our personality and is composed of the thoughts which we have been creating in our own mind; therefore, if we wish a change in conditions all that is necessary is to change our thought; this will in turn change our mental attitude, which will in turn change our personality, which will in turn change the persons, things and conditions, or, the experiences with which we meet in life.

It is, however, no easy matter to change the mental attitude, but bypersistent effort it may be accomplished; the mental attitude is patterned after the mental pictures which have been photographed on the brain; if you do not like the pictures, destroy the negatives and create new pictures; this is the art of visualization.

Master Key Experience – Week 20

When you begin to perceive that the essence of the Universal is within yourself– is you — you begin to do things; you begin to feel your power; it is the fuel which fires the imagination; which lights the torch of inspiration; which gives vitality to thought; which enables you to connect with all the invisible forces of the Universe. It is this power which will enable you to plan fearlessly, to execute masterfully.

 

Week 20 webby. Wow. I had goosebumps. Is it strange I noticed my breathing changing during Davene talk about the flight or fight and comfort zone part. I can’t wait for the tools! I’ve been thinking out of those five words what I really resonate with, what feeling is most prominent in my life. I think unworthiness, why me! But why not me. There’s a lot of fear still here. But I am expanding I feel it inside me. I am not the same person I was at the start of this. I need to believe in myself more and I am still on the way to being the person I know I am meant to be but I know whole heartedly there’s no turning back. I know too much now. I am so grateful for that.

I need to get my act together with a mastermind, that’s a priority for me this week.

I absolutely loved the 1993 ——————————2093 exercise. How many summers do I have left? When will I begin?

There is only one answer. Right now. DO IT RIGHT NOW.

That’s all for this week. I feel so much gratitude inside me for this course. My mind is constantly buzzing. I am still trying to hone my skills of concentrating on fixing the static in my head to be able to hear clearly but there wasn’t any sound at all before. So I know I will get there. Practice and persistence are the OG.

Bye 🙂

Master Key Experience – Week 19

‘You may know that thought constantly, eternally is taking form, is forever seeking expression, or you may not, but the fact remains that if your thought is powerful, constructive, and positive, this will be plainly evident in the state ofyour health, your business and your environment; if your thought is weak, critical, destructive and negative generally, it will manifest in your body as fear, worryand nervousness, in your finance as lack and limitation, and in discordant conditions in your environment’

 

HEY

The big thing I took away from this week was the fact me and my partner had an argument. In the past I had a very difficult time being able to handle my emotions. Sadness would fully engulf me. I remember the feeling so well, like I couldn’t do anything to lift myself up out of the cloud. I don’t know if it was depression because it wasn’t constant but when it did come, I couldn’t get out of bed – I’d try and numb myself with whatever possible – mindless tv, alcohol, food (this was a big one) and also exercise which was the one positive. I think thats the one that really saved me so to speak. I used to also unload my problems constantly onto people who didn’t need that negativity in their life.

So after all that… the big high five moment for me this week is that I was completely able to rationalise and compartmentalise my feelings and come out still feeling okay, not deflated or sad but completely neutral.

The biggest thing from this course so far for me I the fact I have full control over how I want to feel. I’m in control of my life not anyone or anything else!

Last week and this week I really really struggled to do everything. I don’t know what came over me. I really truly get excited about the stuff we learn in the webbys, I know that this stuff is absolutely 100% I have no doubt in my mind. But still I let my old subby get the better of me and sink back into my old habits of unproductivness. I’m really debating with my old blueprint hard, I actually hear a conversation between my new and old blueprints in my head sometimes, fighting it out. I have found reading the obituary and asking myself the questions after really helps with that.

I’m catching up so onto week 20 webby and my next blog post!

YAY love getting shit done.

DO IT NOW

Bye! xo

Mater Key Experience – Week 18

‘Thought is the invisible link by which the individual comes into communication with the Universal, the finite with the Infinite, the seen with the Unseen. Thought is the magic by which the human is transformed into a being who thinks and knows and feels and acts.’

 

Hey all!

Well first off it’s now week 22 actually but I am catching up. I’ve just finished the week 18 webby and I wish I had watched it earlier because it really resonated with me.

If we study people/topics/trends that are merely average all we will ever be is average! THAT IS HUGE TO ME! I loved Shawns TED talk. I am so grateful for it!

It just sparked a fire in me. I want people to ask at my funeral ‘Did she have passion?’ and I want people to scream YES, she was the most passionate person I know! I’ve felt such a longing to find something I was passionate about – trying to adhere to peoples standards and societies ‘rules’ but I have chosen to really just think about what I love what makes me happy, what give me purpose this year. When I stop loving something I’m really trying to just say that’s it for me now. It’s a bit difficult when I don’t love my job but it’s paying the rent. But lately I go into work with the attitude that it is a stepping stone to get me to where I want to go, instead of the fact I don’t want to be there.

Be happy first. So simple but such a revelation for me. Your vibe attracts your tribe.

I was a little bummed this week though, I remember I had a smart goal in my DMP that I didn’t meet. I have changed the date. But I do understand that it’s because I must not have truly believed it.

What was I pretending not to know?
That with a little effort I have the complete power to use my thoughts to create the life I want.

What will the person I intend to become do next?
Well right now she will be finishing this and writing week 19s blog.

Arrivederci

‘The incentive of attention is interest; the greater the interest, the greater the attention; the greater the attention, the greater the interest, action and reaction; begin by paying attention; before long you will have aroused interest; this interest will attract more attention, and this attention will produce more interest, and so on. This practice will enable you to cultivate the power of attention.’

Master Key Experience – Week 17 Heroes Journey

COURAGE COMES AFTER DOING THE THING YOU FEAR

What a whirlwind of a week. So I did things a little backwards as per usual this week. Week 17 happened, I wrote a few things down of what happened and then I watched the Webby after the week was over. Let me tell you, I had a little bit of an insane week. I was sticking to the exercises religiously. Up until this week. Okay maybe not with as much ENTHUSIASM but I was still doing everything every single day. And I had not ever wondered if this was really worth it up until this week. Or that I missed TV. And I absolutely binged with bad foods I was doing so well keeping away from. I fought with my boyfriend one night and just felt too sad to finish my exercises for the day and then that was a little bit of a domino affect. Every time I was tired or feeling down or exhausted I missed a couple things and I even went one whole day without doing ANYTHING. I’d say maybe 2 days in total not doing anything and about 3-4 where I missed a couple things like end of day read or my plan of attack things I tick off daily. I never felt happy about it though, I always had a weird feeling in my stomach after doing it. I am back on track now but it’s taking a little bit more motivation then before now the momentum of getting things done stopped. But after watching the webby I get it.

I was experiencing grief and I let it get the better of me went all the way back to denial. But I opt for the heroes journey. I know it will be easier now I know that I am a hero. I honestly could not not do this if you know what I mean. I am still learning and discovering and I am no where near done but I know too much now to ever go back to being a naive girl with no purpose or direction or excitement for life.

Now lets PMA this blog post up!

I LOVE EARL NIGHTINGALE. I listen to the strangest secret at least twice a week. His voice is so soothing. I’ve got pleasing personality as my virtue this week and he definitely has a pleasing personality! I have been seeing it a few times a day but I know there is more I have probably overlooked.

I’m really starting to get the whole give more get more. I know it’s a simple sentence but it’s taken me a while to fully understand it’s power. But just giving a simple smile to someone who is not smiling, makes me smile even bigger. I love the feeling.

Which leads me on to the question this week – How can each of us be the greatest salesman in the world? Hmm the very first thing that came to my head was – give more, get more. We can each be the greatest salesman in the world by giving more of our perfect selves in service to others.

I had an amazing meditation the other day. I was on the beach and I fully started thinking about my website program I want to make and ideas started flowing, I was honestly surprised and impressed. Not sure how to start it yet but I have started to enjoy my sits more and more each time I get some magic. Which isn’t every sit by any means – maybe I have to sit for longer. Something to sleep on.

So the 4 points, let’s quickly review

DMP – I am pondering lately if my DMP is 100% or if I should rewrite. I am going to sit on it.

PMA – honestly I’m pretty good at this one except for the last week or so. I’m definitely a zillion times better at dealing with things then before I started this course. I see the good in the world a lot more then before. My one struggle is my work. I really don’t enjoy it so when I’m there my mood is down.

POA – this is coming along nicely

MMA – I gotta work on this. I am an introvert and when things get intense or I get inside my head I keep to myself. But I have a beautiful group of people who are there to support me so I’m jumping back in

I’m all in

I am nature’s greatest miracle.

I LOVE YOU REBEKAH EVE GILBERT

 

Master Key Experience – Week 17

12. The mind may place the ideal a little too high and fall short of the mark it may attempt to soar on untrained wings and instead of flying, fall to earth; but that is no reason for not making another attempt. 

Hey happy people,

I love that quote from week 17. Because I’m still in the process of trusting myself and that helps me forgive myself when I fall short of that.

I got goosebumps telling myself – I give permission to you to be so bloody happy in the webby. And I’m definitely going to be digging deep this week with the gal in the glass about WHAT DO I WANT. I just want to reconfirm what I already know. Do even more soul searching haha.

I had self control and decisiveness this week. I was pretty good at noticing it in me, had a bit of trouble noticing self control in others but when I really went looking I found a couple examples. Self control was interesting for me though, because I was focusing on it, it really made me want to exercise it. It helped a few times when the sugary delicious snacks get passed around work at arvo tea time.

I’m still finding it difficult to meditate ‘properly’ The exercises are never visual for me and when I read other peoples comments, I get a little jealous actually. But I’m still keeping them up. I believe in the power of it so eventually I know I will get there.

I’ve set up a mastermind group with two girls in my tribe and we had our first zoom call. I’ve got to email them my DMP. I was a little taken aback when I heard theres. They are beautifully written and very different to my own. But we are all different souls on this journey so can’t give myself a hard time about it.

I love writing the gratitudes, makes me feel amazing. I cry every time I read an obituary. That’s the empath in me. I’ve been wondering about different ways to be kind without getting noticed and coming up blank. Need to meditate on that. I am still doing kind things every day but sometimes people know I’m the one who does it. I have been anonymously giving to go fund me pages nearly everyday and enjoy doing that.

I want to go more into a topic about this next blog but just putting it out in the universe if anyone else thinks learning all of this/cracking that bitch of a cement off can feel a little isolating at times? I wouldn’t change it for the world but lately I have just noticed some of the people I used to love being around are actually super negative people and friends feel distant because they don’t really understand what I’m going through and why I’m different. My outlook of the world has definitely changed and I’m beginning to understand why some yogis lived in caves just to be able to full delve into themselves without other people judging/imprinting their beliefs on you.

Ah well one door closes, another opens right.

(How about 20 million bigger better more amazing doors open haha)

See yas xo