12. The mind may place the ideal a little too high and fall short of the mark it may attempt to soar on untrained wings and instead of flying, fall to earth; but that is no reason for not making another attempt.
Hey happy people,
I love that quote from week 17. Because I’m still in the process of trusting myself and that helps me forgive myself when I fall short of that.
I got goosebumps telling myself – I give permission to you to be so bloody happy in the webby. And I’m definitely going to be digging deep this week with the gal in the glass about WHAT DO I WANT. I just want to reconfirm what I already know. Do even more soul searching haha.
I had self control and decisiveness this week. I was pretty good at noticing it in me, had a bit of trouble noticing self control in others but when I really went looking I found a couple examples. Self control was interesting for me though, because I was focusing on it, it really made me want to exercise it. It helped a few times when the sugary delicious snacks get passed around work at arvo tea time.
I’m still finding it difficult to meditate ‘properly’ The exercises are never visual for me and when I read other peoples comments, I get a little jealous actually. But I’m still keeping them up. I believe in the power of it so eventually I know I will get there.
I’ve set up a mastermind group with two girls in my tribe and we had our first zoom call. I’ve got to email them my DMP. I was a little taken aback when I heard theres. They are beautifully written and very different to my own. But we are all different souls on this journey so can’t give myself a hard time about it.
I love writing the gratitudes, makes me feel amazing. I cry every time I read an obituary. That’s the empath in me. I’ve been wondering about different ways to be kind without getting noticed and coming up blank. Need to meditate on that. I am still doing kind things every day but sometimes people know I’m the one who does it. I have been anonymously giving to go fund me pages nearly everyday and enjoy doing that.
I want to go more into a topic about this next blog but just putting it out in the universe if anyone else thinks learning all of this/cracking that bitch of a cement off can feel a little isolating at times? I wouldn’t change it for the world but lately I have just noticed some of the people I used to love being around are actually super negative people and friends feel distant because they don’t really understand what I’m going through and why I’m different. My outlook of the world has definitely changed and I’m beginning to understand why some yogis lived in caves just to be able to full delve into themselves without other people judging/imprinting their beliefs on you.
Ah well one door closes, another opens right.
(How about 20 million bigger better more amazing doors open haha)
See yas xo