Master Key Experience – Week 19

‘You may know that thought constantly, eternally is taking form, is forever seeking expression, or you may not, but the fact remains that if your thought is powerful, constructive, and positive, this will be plainly evident in the state ofyour health, your business and your environment; if your thought is weak, critical, destructive and negative generally, it will manifest in your body as fear, worryand nervousness, in your finance as lack and limitation, and in discordant conditions in your environment’

 

HEY

The big thing I took away from this week was the fact me and my partner had an argument. In the past I had a very difficult time being able to handle my emotions. Sadness would fully engulf me. I remember the feeling so well, like I couldn’t do anything to lift myself up out of the cloud. I don’t know if it was depression because it wasn’t constant but when it did come, I couldn’t get out of bed – I’d try and numb myself with whatever possible – mindless tv, alcohol, food (this was a big one) and also exercise which was the one positive. I think thats the one that really saved me so to speak. I used to also unload my problems constantly onto people who didn’t need that negativity in their life.

So after all that… the big high five moment for me this week is that I was completely able to rationalise and compartmentalise my feelings and come out still feeling okay, not deflated or sad but completely neutral.

The biggest thing from this course so far for me I the fact I have full control over how I want to feel. I’m in control of my life not anyone or anything else!

Last week and this week I really really struggled to do everything. I don’t know what came over me. I really truly get excited about the stuff we learn in the webbys, I know that this stuff is absolutely 100% I have no doubt in my mind. But still I let my old subby get the better of me and sink back into my old habits of unproductivness. I’m really debating with my old blueprint hard, I actually hear a conversation between my new and old blueprints in my head sometimes, fighting it out. I have found reading the obituary and asking myself the questions after really helps with that.

I’m catching up so onto week 20 webby and my next blog post!

YAY love getting shit done.

DO IT NOW

Bye! xo

2 thoughts on “Master Key Experience – Week 19

  1. yay to doing it now – you are so wonderfully doing that.. x x – powerful shift in taking control of your e-motions – hope you’re feeling ok deep down under all of that? ..the next few webbies may hold some insights around that sadness…
    and a ps: there is much treasure to be revealed beyond that ‘cement’ .. a subtle shift in focus?

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  2. Yes, we are in control of our lives, as much as it may seem otherwise… now to make use of that fact …. I too haven’t sufficiently banned old subby yet. Thank you for sharing this journey.

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